From Cat Marnell, a candid and darkly humorous memoir of prescription drug addiction and self-sabotage unfolds in the glamorous world of fashion magazines and nightlife. At twenty-six, Marnell was an associate beauty editor at Lucky, but she concealed a secret life as a prescription drug addict. A 'doctor shopper,' she manipulated psychiatrists for pills, battled bulimia, and lived a chaotic existence filled with promiscuity and insomnia. Her story begins at a posh New England prep school with a prescription for Ritalin and follows her amphetamine-fueled rise through the beauty departments of NYLON, Teen Vogue, Glamour, and Lucky. Marnell's journey reveals the struggle between ambition and addiction, as her disease threatens everything she worked hard to achieve. From the Conde Nast building, where she shares an elevator with Anna Wintour, to seedy nightclubs and mental hospitals, she vividly portrays the wild, often sinister world of a young female addict unable to say no. Combining bold subject matter with literary aspirations, this memoir is mesmerizing, revelatory, and necessary.
